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August 31,2009, forever changed my life. Woke up to the news of my 11 year old cousin, Alex, passing away that morning. I couldn’t believe it. The tears came out in less than a millisecond. I thought what happened? Did he get hurt? Sick? He was always a healthy fit boy. He loved sports especially soccer. He could’ve made it to be a Prof soccer star. I never imagined this would happen to my family, someone so young and close to me. I remember the first time I met him. Since he lived in Alabama I didn’t see him ‘til he was five & in Mexico because our families finally got together for Christmas. He was eating breakfast and I was sitting down on a couch and everytime I would look at him he’d hide behind this other chair and smirk that smirk he had up to the day he lived. He was one troublemaker but he also stood up for himself. My aunt told me a story that one time he was riding the school bus and a older, bigger kid pushed him. Well he did the same right back. My little camera man, always wanting to take the pictures. The last couple of years in his life he kept his hair long and wouldn’t want to cut it. He looked so cute. The last time I saw him before he passed away was 8 months before and how I wish I had gone to AL that August with my cousins on vacations. But we had put it off. Of course if we had known he was going to be leaving us we would have gone. But who would know? I miss him so much and living in Alabama makes it so much harder. He’s always in my dreams. I’m so happy to dream because I see him. :)  Because of the dreams I have, I have no doubt that he is still here with us and always will be even though we can’t see him. What will I not give to see you again? Love you and we will meet again one day handsome boy.

R.I.P Alex Garcia

October 1997-August 2009

So I just found out I won’t be getting a PellGrant this semester. Sukxs ass! Shit just cause my dad made good last year don’t mean he’s getting the same this year. blah blah blah they said they can only adjust it if he’s getting unemployment. STupid cause he’s making less than what he got from unemployment. Then there’s the stupid pricey books. As for me I got this wack hostessing job that barely gets me anywhere but it’s something. WEll now that I have this payment of 1700$$ due I can say goodbye to my $$ that I had saved for my car downpayment/payments. It was a well decent amount too. I will go to the financial aid office one more time and see if I can do anything. If not then I will have peace that I tried. We told my dad the other day that I wasn’t going to get a pell grant this semester no more and idk he didn’t really say anything. Earlier today I heard him ask my mom if I was still gonna go to school. WTF really?! YOu’re really asking that? It’s like he doesn’t even care. I’m going to pay for school with or without his help & I’m not going to ask him for his help either. He makes me so mad/sad. He always tells me don’t be lazy blah blah do something, yet he doesn’t want to help in my studies. Whatever it’ll pay off at the end for me. I hope. I need to stop worrying. It’s hard not to worry though. I feel like one thing get solved and then another things get thrown at me. “never give up” -my angel Alex Garcia

raytimes3 asked: eli! welcome to tumblr! haha

Thankx Ray! lol

Anonymous asked: i think your hello needs another "L" just saying (:

thanx for letting me know, but that’s how it’s supposed to be. It’s spelled the way I’m saying “hello”